Sorry I haven't posted much since we got home. For the most part things are going great. Lily seems to be adjusting well. She sleeps through the night now for the most part. I may have made her sleep deprived in the beginning but after the weekend of being awake from 2am to 5am I said that's enough and started a normal day schedule. I would wake her up at 8:30am even if she had just gone to sleep at 5am and we'd do breakfast and play then have a morning nap for about 1.5 hours then lunch and more play then afternoon nap for the same amount of time and by 8pm she was ready to sleep. It took only a couple of days of this and she started sleeping through the night. Now her daytime naps have shortened and it's hard to get stuff done, but I think I'll take that over being awake at night.
Adjusting to motherhood has been a little harder then I thought. I have wanted this all of my adult life and now that it's here it's a strange feeling. I think the mind romantices how it will be and it's just not that way. She cries and screams and throws fits just like a normal child. I think I have a little bit of post partum depression. I think this because I feel like I should be perfectly happy and I can't figure out why I don't feel that way. I am really enjoying Lily, she is a happy baby. I feel like she is bonding to us. A friend commented that from the time we came home to now (a week) that Lily looks more alive and animated. She looks like she is adjusting well. Why do I not feel like I'm adjusting well?
This is hard to admit to the whole blogging world. I'm the kind that will put on a smiling face and tell you everything is going great, because everything is going great except inside of me. Maybe I just need a good cry and everything will be better. I feel like I just need to settle into stay at home mom mode because that is what I am for the next 3 months until I go back to work. Just getting these feeling out makes me feel better. Thanks for listening.
Here is a picture of the two of us today with Lily in her cute elmo outfit that my sister gave to her.